It's like you become seasoned experiencing so much in such a short time. I mean, seriously, 40 years really isn't a long time at all. Sometimes I wish we lived as long as they did in Bible times. If you think about it, even if you lived a full 100 years it really isn't that long at all. It takes us a good 30 or 40 years to even figure out what is really important. Just about that time our bodies start betraying us. I recognize that most, if not all, of our health maladies are self-inflicted through diet and lifestyle. With the corruption of our food system and the lies we've believed about what is and is not healthy we practically have to be a private investigator just to know what we should or should not eat. That aside, just imagine what you could accomplish if you lived to say even 300 years. The possibilities would be limitless.
On another perspective, what if we hadn't transitioned to a work based society. What if children still had responsibilities that made them real contributors to society? What if we didn't base our life on artificial time lines? What if we weren't limited by our age? What if we grew up thinking we could do anything and those around us supported us in our ideas and explorations? What if our society was really based on loving our neighbor? Oh how different things could be.
With those questions in mind I have been actively transitioning my perspective. Beauty is the simplest thing to seek on a daily basis. So, I started there. It really is everywhere. I often wonder if people truly behold the beauty around them, or do they just take it for granted. Life is way too short to take anything for granted, and the beauty around us is free for the taking. Granted, it can be more challenging dependent upon your environment, but I have grown to believe that more depends on our perspective. After all, we are in control of how we perceive all things. Really, we are.
Another one I challenged myself with is the issue of being judgmental. I made a conscious decision to stop judging others. I mean do we ever really know the reason behind that person cutting us off on the freeway, or why the cashier at the store was rude to us? We really do have no way of knowing why someone we don't know on any level does what they do at any given moment. It is a choice to not take things personally and to not stand in judgement of others for any reason. Really, it is not our place.
The most challenging transition I have been working on, and it remains unconquered for me for the time being, is learning not to base my emotions on the attitude of others. We really can control how we react to what others do and say to us. We do not have to meet anger with anger or spite with spite. I am a very emotional person, and I recognize the possibility of maintaining calm in all circumstances. It just seems so impossible to me at the moment. Where do we draw the line? Why do we give up so much control? It really is up to us how we feel about the actions of others in relation to us. Really, it is.
So, my reality is that God in his infinite wisdom finds it necessary to lay a heavy load on my shoulders. I accept that wholeheartedly. I do not know why, and that is okay. However, it was suggested by a dear friend that I am such a capable person how else would God show me that I need to rely on him for all things? There is sound wisdom in that observation. If he didn't give me a heavy load to carry, I would likely walk easily off relying on self and forgetting that He is the source of all my strength.
I accept my burden and grasp my lessons:
Beauty is all around us and free for the taking.
"O worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness: fear before him, all the earth." - Psalm 96:9
I will judge no man.
"Ye judge after the flesh; I judge no man." - John 8:15
It is up to me how I react to others. Period.
"She opened her mouth with wisdom, and in her tongue is the law of kindness." - Proverbs 31:26
My life may be in constant flux, and I accept the persistent presence of constant transition, but I know that my God is present in all circumstance. I accept my burdens and my lessons and will ever rise to the challenge. Life may beat me up, batter my bones, and drain my energy, but I will rise to the challenge with the strength of my Lord. Above all I will do my best to honor him and reflect his love first to my family, and then to all those he puts in my path. Life really is more beautiful with an adjusted perspective.